We sang this song at church on Sunday (in French). 🙂
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!
I have been thinking about God’s faithfulness. This is defined as the quality or character of being faithful; fidelity; truth; loyalty; constancy.
Every Tuesday, I go to seminary with Dad. I get to sit in on his New Testament Theology class, worship and hear a message in chapel, eat lunch with other students, get a coffee from the magic coffee machine, and head back for the second half of class. It is pretty much the best thing ever. 🙂 I am learning so much, and I am so very grateful for this opportunity God has given me.
Today, I came home home from seminary, and my heart was overflowing. Not only has our awesome God given me the opportunity to go to seminary, he has lead me to be involved in so many things. I have recently started going to help kids with their homework at the elementary school on Mondays and Fridays. Wednesdays, I go to work in the food pantry at the Red Cross. Thursdays, I go talk and play games with Alzheimer’s patients and go to a Zumba class. On Fridays, I also have orchestra rehearsal. Saturdays are mainly spent with sweet friends, and Sundays are spent at church in Versailles. I am in awe and overwhelmed at all of the opportunities God has given me.
This blog is really cool because it allows me to keep track of my experiences and lessons I have learned this year. I would like to share a little bit of my very first blog post with you. It’s called “Fear is a Liar.”
“I have some different feelings and circumstances this time around. First and foremost, I won’t go to school. I am an adult, so that gives me a lot of freedom. I can even drive here, so I can do everything that I wish to do. While this sounds great, it scares me that I won’t have a set schedule. I know that I will go to seminary with Dad once a week, and I know that I will go to church. Other than that, how I spend my time is up to me, and that scares me. On the way here, while most of the plane passengers were sleeping, lots of doubts that I did not expect to feel crossed my mind. What if I completely forget how to speak French? What if I don’t know what to do most days and feel useless? What if, at the end of this year, I have not accomplished anything for God’s glory?”
Looking back at what I had written just a few short months ago, I laugh. I laugh for a couple of reasons. One, I have not driven here once!! I thought I would be able to since our car is an automatic, but it is absolutely terrifying on these tiny roads, and I think I might cause my dad to have a heart attack. 🙂 I walk most places, and Dad very kindly drives me anywhere I need to go. Two, I laugh because I had no idea what God was going to do. I had no idea that he would lead me to the Red Cross where I would find amazing volunteer opportunities. I had no idea that he would lead me to the perfect community orchestra, where I have so much fun making music. I had no idea that my church would be so excited to have a bassoonist play on Sundays. I had no idea that I would make so many new friends. I had no idea that instead of doubting that I would accomplish anything for God’s glory, I would start doubting that I don’t have enough time to do everything I want to do and spend time with everyone I want to spend time with before July 1 rolls around.
Yes, you read that right. I am doubting things again. Even though God has been extremely faithful in guiding me in the right direction, I am again worried about how to spend my time. He is so good and so consistent. I am extremely sinful and unpredictable. Yesterday, my family and I were planning out the month of December, and I became worried. Am I going to be able to get it all done? Am I going to be able to accomplish everything God has laid out for me?
I have only one solution to this, and it is the same conclusion I came up with last time. I know God will lead me to this solution again, and again, and again. I must trust in the Lord. I must spend time in his word and bring all of my worries, doubts, requests, thanks, and praises before him in prayer. I must spend time with other believers, being held accountable and growing in the Lord together. I want to start lifting every activity up to him, asking if it is part of what he wants me to accomplish. I want to pray that he gives me discernment in everything I do. The more I seek him, something begins to happen. I love how this quote sums it up:
“Aslan,” said Lucy, “you’re bigger.” “That is because you are older, little one,” answered he. “Not because you are?” “I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger.”
-C.S. Lewis, Prince Caspian
When I spend more time with the Lord, I realize how BIG he is. I realize how he is in control of everything, how he is perfectly faithful, perfectly kind, and perfectly in charge of my life. When I spend more time with the Lord, I also realize how small I am. I realize how I am doubtful, inconsistent, selfish, and sinful. These two realizations combined make me love the Lord more and more. My time spent with him makes me trust him more and more. In God’s word he says:
Psalm 77:11 I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
Looking back on my doubts and realizing how God provides in ways that I could never imagine, I know I can “Trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding; In all of my ways I will submit to him, and he will make my paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:6).
He is faithful, and he will never, ever fail us. Praise him!!