We spent our first two weeks in France at an Airbnb because our rental home would not be ready until September 1. Last weekend, we spent some time at the beach and then headed to our “permanent home” where we will be until July 2020! Up until now, we have been happily living out of our suitcases. However, in the car on the way to our rental house, I had a burning desire to unpack and organize all of my clothes. As silly as it sounds, I was excited to get “settled in,” and I think this is a feeling humans normally have.
I wondered if my little brother felt the same way I did. I turned to him and asked, “Are you excited to move into our new home?” He replied, “I guess. I’m glad to finally have some stability in my life.” While he said this in his joking tone, I knew there was some truth to that statement, maybe even more so for him than for me. While Max knows he is following the Lord’s call coming to France, things haven’t been super easy for him. He feels somewhat out of place because he doesn’t speak French. All of his friends back home are starting high school, marching band, and Friday night football games. He had to say bye to his 3 cats that he loves so very much, and he misses Dr. Pepper. 🙂
I struggle somewhat to relate to him because all of my friends went to college, so we were going to have to say goodbye anyway. I speak French and love the country of France, but this desire to unpack my suitcase helped me relate to him. Then, this song by Building 429 started playing from the playlist we were listening to in the car on our way “home.”
All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong…
This longing I feel for an organized closet or that Max feels for Dr. Pepper, this longing we feel for the comfort or stability of “home” – this is not something that the world can satisfy. This is something only God can give. Since I have trusted Jesus as my one and only savior, I will truly be home when I am in Heaven with him forever.
I praised the Lord for giving my family this encouragement. In this moment, God reminded us that while we may miss Texas, he is preparing a truly permanent place for us where we will be in his presence for all eternity. There will be no crying or pain. It will be the way God originally designed before the huge problem of sin messed everything up. Because of my sin, I don’t deserve this permanent home with the Lord, but he freely gives it to me through faith in Jesus. What an incredible promise!
During the car ride, my family shared some quotes with each other about this promise:
“We’re all just walking each other home.” – Ram Dass
“If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.” – C.S. Lewis
You see, we weren’t made for this temporary, sinful world. We were made to be in a relationship with God. This is the only thing that can truly satisfy us. So, I will work to serve him daily until I can worship him for all eternity in my forever home. I want to encourage you that whatever suffering you may be going through today will end soon. This longing for a permanent home will end soon because our lives here on Earth are but a speck in comparison to eternity. James 4:14-15 says:
“Why, you don’t even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
It brings me amazing hope to know that I will truly be home soon, but I include verse 15 as a reminder to myself. I don’t have much time here on Earth, so I should only be concerned with doing the Lord’s will. I should be concerned with “walking others home,” telling them about the saving grace of Jesus that allows us to have a relationship with God and a permanent home with him.
I praise the Lord that he is with us every day and continually shows us his love. One way I currently feel God’s love is through our neighborhood cat, Lolly. Max was missing our cats at home and God gave us one that frequently visits here. What a beautiful reminder of his ability to satisfy our needs and wants. I long for the day that we are in his presence, completely satisfied in him.
Until then, as I walk through this world stained by sin, I will remember that “I am not home yet.”